As I become more aware of my thoughts and actions while driving,
I ‘ve noticed that I have started talking to myself. My True Self is giving advice and comfort to my little (ego) self.
Examples:
I see I am getting angry at drivers because…They are going too slow, they are driving dangerously, they are crossing lanes to turn, they don’t know how to use a roundabout etc…
So I found myself saying, “It’s ok. You are not in a hurry.” “ You are not responsible for other drivers.” Or “ You will arrive safely to your destination despite how others are driving.” And strangely enough, with this talk and putting focus on my breathing, I calm myself down. Now part of me (I’m sure its the little self) feels weird doing this. What will people think when they are riding with me? Yet another part of me (True Self) feels that this self talk is working to help calm “me” down and it doesn’t care what anybody else thinks.
I don’t want to be that angry , impatient driver. Over the years I have tried many things to help me become a calmer, more understanding driver/person but I find them not very long lasting. I keep searching for something that will help me not take driving so personally. I confess that I am getting better. At least I am aware of my behaviour in this area. And in the last few months, saying positive affirmations and keeping them in my thoughts as I drive, has helped. But in the last couple of days I seem to be back at square one and I don’t like it. So, without even consulting myself, I started these conversations and so far so good. Deep in my heart I want change in this area. So who knows if this is my answer?? Only time will tell.
